My Girl

This is not your typical love letter. This is not a letter for a boyfriend, ex, family member, or even a love letter to myself.

This is a love letter to one of my best friends in the world. No matter what life throws our way, we know we are each other’s steady hand. There is a light, laugh, and/or much needed cry at the other end of the line.

I feel incredibly grateful and humbled that this friend stuck by my side when what was reflected outwardly was a scared individual who lacked the confidence and feeling to be present and, quite honestly, the ability to offer any semblance of support to others. Several years later as I expressed my regret for not being the friend she deserved. Her response? “I caught glimpses of the real Lilly and never doubted that her shine would be back. All I needed was a glimpse.”

Sweet soul sister - all I can say is that your courage, wit, selflessness, creativity, inner and outer beauty, and honesty was never the hard part. The most difficult and fulfilling part of our friendship has been caring so deeply about one another from a distance, knowing that the only thing we can do during the highest of highs and lowest of lows is be a voice on the other end of the line.

Despite the physical distance, it has been during the three years of not seeing each other that our friendship evolved into one of the most meaningful relationships in each of our lives. Being in person we merely scratched the surface.

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The massage to my train and the dance to my overalls - let’s just say there is nobody else I would skip class with to create the dirtiest dart board of all time (RIP). Above all else, you give me the courage to express myself through writing, walk away when it is easier to stay, and climb some of the biggest literal and figurative mountains in my life. I do not know if I will ever be able to provide what you have given me, but I will spend every day trying my darnedest.

Love, Bean.